i fucking hate school.

So my English teacher gave us a 70 page, yes seven-zero, paper due Friday(she gave us 3 weeks). now call me crazy but i think that's obscene. in all honesty, its a waste of time. i don't see any production coming from this project so, being the defiant rebel that i am, i decided I'm not going to do it. in my decision, i persuaded several of my classmates, who felt the same way, to not do the assignment as well. i was informed yesterday that a source told my teacher about the "plan" and she wasn't too happy. we allegedly formed this alliance and u know what, its not that deep. she makes us out to be the illuminati, out to destroy the world and in reality, we just dont wanna waste time we barely have. i was absent from school today but i was told that my teacher spoke on the "alliance" she said, as per my friend Khameela(and several other classmates):

Khameela (7:31:45 PM): apparently, we're conniving, deceitful children who have enough balls to coup d'etat
Khameela (7:32:32 PM): but, as was said earlier, her balls are BIGGER
Khameela (7:33:11 PM): she has BIG 30 YEAR OLD BALLS
Khameela (7:33:25 PM): and we only have 18 year young balls
-here i asked her to speak on the alliance that we supposedly formed.

Khameela (7:33:31 PM): the alliance

Khameela (7:33:45 PM): she doesn't like it, and we will be dealt with accordingly

Khameela (7:33:57 PM): so if she has to fail us and prevent us from graduating, she will

Khameela (7:34:10 PM): she said she doesn't wanna be, but she will be

Khameela (7:34:28 PM): so she's pissed off, and will probably take it out on us

sooooo...what ur telling me, Ms. Englishteacherwhoshallremainnameless, that ur basically as immature as u THINK we are. awesome, we have a clown for a teacher. grow up. this paper will in no way prepare us for this exam in 3 weeks. in fact, i think you're dissuading most of the class from wanting to even take this exam. in response to us being defiant and conniving, stop trying to prove yourself. you're not Ms. Gouvia. Even Ms. Gouvia wouldnt give us an assignment as rediculous as that and if in the even that she did, we would give us an adequate amount of time. what is 70 pgs going to do? thats 68 pages youre not going to read. please, dont try me. im glad i wasnt in class today because my sharp tongue and my 17 year old balls just might of gotten me a 55 for the rest of the semester. and despite the extention to next friday im still not doing it. on that note, im out. peace.

Head down as i watch my feet take turns hitting the ground....

So lately I've been a little torn between emotions, which isn't new. I have a habit of giving too much of myself when it comes to relationships. now, not everyone sees it this way but i get attached easily and wind up getting "hurt." this guy I'm talking to seems exactly like what I've been looking for in a guy. he's sweet, funny, open, and the whole nine. but i guess i come on a little strong, which i see no problem with. I'd rather put myself out there and let u know what it is than to hold back and try to front like I'm not feeling the Kidd. he even told me I'm "moving too fast" call me crazy but if we talked about "long distance relationships" and figuring out who's going to school where, and I'm just tryna see if ur even gonna ask me out, i don't think that's moving fast at all. i don't wanna be ur boy toy. i understand after a few weeks i cant b like "put a ring on it", and I'm not! i don't want u to devote ur life to me, i just want to know if you're gonna commit cuz if not then don't waste my time. if im constantly being asked if im talking to other boys and im telling u no because im talking to u then i think u would get the picture. not everyone is the same. hopefully we can straighten things out because i see some potential in what we have. "im willing to run...smash into you..." if i had the chance i would give all of myself to u but if u cant even meet me half way i think its pointless to even try. if i could just speak to him then im sure we could work it out but when i cant manage to reach the guy i think its a tad bit difficult to do so. ramble over.....im out

SOTD- Smash Into You by Beyonce
(i promise the next few SOTD's will be Non-Beyonce! lol)

Sincerely,

Parad0x Pr0digy

Them Hustlers Keep On Talkin'...

Hey Blogworld. its been a while since the last post and i apologize. i've been away since monday because i left for a 6 day college tour to 15 HBCU's on the eastern shore. Between monday and friday, we visited Lincoln University, Cheyney University, Deleware State University, Morgan State University, Howard University, Virginia State University, Hampton, Norfolk State, Shaw, St. Augustine's College, North Carolina A&T, Morehouse and Clark Atlanta. I've Been accepted to all the schools i applied to(i didnt apply to Del. State, Clark Atlanta, or NC A&T) so i must say im proud of myself because this is a product of my hard work and dedication . throughout high school, i've done most of my work myself with very little help from others so im grateful for the opportunites and im excited about the options. im still waiting to hear from Johnson and Wales but i've narrowed my choices down to St. Augustine's, Lincoln, and VSU. If i do go to any of those schools, it wouldnt be for Culinary Arts but hey, who knows, maybe i have a future in journalism. im looking forward to college. im excited about the experience. I'll keep you guys posted on what ever choice i make. until then, IM OUT!
SOTD: Video Phone by Beyonce

Sincerely,

Parad0x Pr0digy

Intimacy, Honesty. Committment. You. Me. Us.

hey blog world. its the first day of spring break! i've been looking forward to this vacation for weeks. i kicked off the break by chilling wit the BOYS, for once. i turned down a "girls" day out for a less stressful, more ho-hum experience with my favorite guys. i linked up with darryl and koran at kadeem's house and it was just a hot mess all over the place i tell u. but i enjoyed myself. we should hang out more often fellas. then afterwards, i went to chill with my guy Jordan. we walked around prospect park just talking and getting to know each other a little better. and i really enjoyed it. he has potential. plus hes cute.
lmao but EVERYBODY AND THEIR MOTHER has joked about the park! its not funny hoes. i like being in the park, its relaxing. fuck you. lol. anywhozer, i need to start packing for that good boy college tour on monday. knowing me, i'll wait till sunday night to start packing. i have mad homework to do that isnt gonna get done 1) because im lazy and 2) i dont manage/have the time. soooo...i'll be failing english this marking period.
but back to Jordan! lol, im tryna wait it out and see how we mesh but i gotta say, im feeling the kid. i know he reads these things so let me stop because i dont wanna get him hype. and with that, i leave you with the SOTD: Shattered Heart By Brandy. Get into the lyrics. im out love muffins.

Sincerely,

Parad0x Pr0digy

Tell me something good

hey blog world. it saturday! yaaaaaay. i have done absolutely nothing with my day and its bittersweet. while i'd like to be out enjoying the day, it feels type good to be doing nothing and relaxing for once. i did some homework, changed my room around, watched some movies, ate, talked with some friends. but in the end, nothing was a big part of my day. so bloggers? what's your weekend looking like? btw, im tryna avoid church tomorrow. everytime i go, i die a little more inside. wish me luck bitches. love u hoes. im out.SOTD- Turn Your Lights Down Low by Megan Joy(From American Idol)

sincerely,

parad0x pr0digy

Self Professed, Profound....

hey blog world! i know its been a while but the season has kicked off and its a whirlwind. volleyball is so demanding i haven't had much time for myself. sorry to deny my reader(s). anyway, whats up with you guys? something that's been on my mind lately but i haven't been able to think it out is relationships. a friend of mine just started dating this guy. he had nothing but great things to say and while I'm happy for him it only makes me wonder about myself even more. this friend knows i want nothing but the best for him because of all the assholes he's encountered before. however, i cant help but think maybe I'm just INCOMPATIBLE. yes, drastic i know. i mean, everyone tells me because I'm 17 that i have plenty of time. yes, i agree that i do have time but i cant help it if my maturity is off the Richter scale and i feel like a grown man deep inside. i feel like I'm in a position where i could handle being in a relationship. furthermore, it makes me question if I'm just too picky. i do want a lot from a guy and i know plenty of men in the gay community are shallow and superficial but what's a kidd to do? honestly, im not 100% sure what im looking for, but when i see it, i'll know. i find myself having to kind of distance myself from certain people because im afriad i'll get attached and i know they're not interested. life's funny: the ones you like dont like you and the ones that like you are the ones you dont like. this god character has an odd sense of humor.
but that's it bloggers. i expressed what i have on my mind at the moment. please, feedback is welcome!
Im Out!

oh BTW, as of lately, there's entirely TOO MUCH going on in this house. i like it quiet, but it seems impossible. everyone likes to make noise and i dont understand why. its starting to piss me off. Rhode Island here i come....

SOTD- Love Is A Losing Game by Amy Winehouse.

Sincerly,

Parad0x Pr0digy