Self Professed, Profound....

hey blog world! i know its been a while but the season has kicked off and its a whirlwind. volleyball is so demanding i haven't had much time for myself. sorry to deny my reader(s). anyway, whats up with you guys? something that's been on my mind lately but i haven't been able to think it out is relationships. a friend of mine just started dating this guy. he had nothing but great things to say and while I'm happy for him it only makes me wonder about myself even more. this friend knows i want nothing but the best for him because of all the assholes he's encountered before. however, i cant help but think maybe I'm just INCOMPATIBLE. yes, drastic i know. i mean, everyone tells me because I'm 17 that i have plenty of time. yes, i agree that i do have time but i cant help it if my maturity is off the Richter scale and i feel like a grown man deep inside. i feel like I'm in a position where i could handle being in a relationship. furthermore, it makes me question if I'm just too picky. i do want a lot from a guy and i know plenty of men in the gay community are shallow and superficial but what's a kidd to do? honestly, im not 100% sure what im looking for, but when i see it, i'll know. i find myself having to kind of distance myself from certain people because im afriad i'll get attached and i know they're not interested. life's funny: the ones you like dont like you and the ones that like you are the ones you dont like. this god character has an odd sense of humor.
but that's it bloggers. i expressed what i have on my mind at the moment. please, feedback is welcome!
Im Out!

oh BTW, as of lately, there's entirely TOO MUCH going on in this house. i like it quiet, but it seems impossible. everyone likes to make noise and i dont understand why. its starting to piss me off. Rhode Island here i come....

SOTD- Love Is A Losing Game by Amy Winehouse.

Sincerly,

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